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I keep going back and forth on staying with the company I'm with or moving on. I think myself and our QA team member are going to leave this year, but no one else knows that yet.

I have the chance to work with a start up a previous coworker works at — and I think I should take it. It's a pay cut, though, and not an insignificant one. The catch I guess, is current work does profit sharing.. and that's almost like a trap. If you know you can get a large chunk of money at the end of every year if you can just tough it out, it feels like a sunk cost fallacy almost. If you don't find that new job in January, or the first half of the year, it feels like you might as well stay until that bonus comes. But I also realize that I have enough money saved up I could take time away from working — since I live in one of the few US states where you don't get fucked healthcare-wise if you are unemployed... I don't think I'll do it but knowing that's an option kind of makes me feel like I have some kind of option/escape route.

Anyway I guess for now I need to come up with project ideas for python... maybe I'll do some mastodon stuff or something. I dunno. Just have to keep my skills sharp and my options open.

On non work-related things, I actually understood a few words of Finnish reading, of all things, the McDonald's finland site lol. I guess studying a little every day is paying off already!


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January 28th 2020

I really need to sleep right now and not write about my day but I woke up in a stress remembering I hadn't done my daily writing or Arabic.

Spent most of the day preparing for the workshop and talking to Rra, Aymeric and Lidia. My bio finally went up on the website and feel pretty happy about that: posted on the fedi here and on transmediale here.

Today's Numbers: On Duolingo Arabic I made 52 points, I got two beers for free at transmediale, bought one beer at the hotel for 3.20, and split a pizza with Bo and Lidia for 2 (of 6 for the whole pizza) and ate a big breakfast for free at the hotel


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January 27th 2020

I wasn't able to sleep for more then 4 hours last night. So I woke up around 6 and was reading the HN thread about recutils which incidentally was something I was just wondering about whether existed or not. It seems potentially almost exactly what I was wishing existed. I will have to play with it a bit but it seeks close. I guess I need contacts that are super flexible but yet allow me to query the data in interesting ways. Maybe what I really want is a good wiki but I want it to work offline and not have to use a web browser. I know what I don't want but I guess I don't know exactly what I do want. Learning how to quickly make a markdown link without having to look it up sure is a positive outcome of working on this blog. I have been using markdown too periodically for years and that stopped me from ever really progressing.

a cute hidden place I passed today on the fedi here

Today's Numbers: I bought a shawarma for €3 at Sesam, I bought coffee for me and Rra at Café Cinema for €6, then we went to another cafe afterwords to and Rra bought us coffee, Rra got sushi for all of us at ?, and I bought a drink at Café Cinema for me and Rra for €8. I made 83 points on Duolingo Arabic


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January 26th 2020

Slept till 4pm (Berlin time) and slowly got dressed and ready for the day. Meandered around the house a bit and talked to Tibo about Russian jams for a while while I decided on what cafe to walk to. I didn't get out of the house till a bit after dark and walked to Cuccuma Cafe. Got a coffee there and chilled for maybe 2 hours and then met up with Tibo and Charlie and talked about New Media Arts and the 'Aesthetics of Politics' while they ate dinner at mokkabar. Tibo recommended the Çiğ köfte at Köfte 61 and I let them borrow my headphones so they could go for a walk and listen to a podcast. Me and Charlie went to the köfte place and I ordered to go (and we drank free sweet Turkish tea while we waited) and also I bought a €2 mango ayran drink that they made there in recycled jars.

We walked back to the house right after cause Charlie had to submit a PR for work asap.

Worked on more fedi preparation for the workshop. After a while Charlie was done with programing and asked if I wanted to watch something. And I had asked earlier in the night if they knew about the Kyoto Animation arson attack and they hadn't. So we wanted to watch something that Kyoto Animation had made. Charlie researched it a bit and found one of their most recent shows to watch called Violet Evergarden (or ヴァイオレット・エヴァーガーデン in Japanese.) and at the end of episode one there is this Asemic/Conlang clock that I really liked:

posted about here

Today's Numbers: Bought one coffee at Cuccuma Cafe for €2.30 and spent €6.47 for a Çiğ köfte and a homemade mango ayran drink at Köfte 61, and made 69 points in Duolingo Arabi before bed


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January 24th

This is the beginning of a new decade. An arbitrary selection of time that has been used for generations to denote 'something' important. What hyperstitious energy do I want to promote into being for this decade. What energy have I promoted in the last one. I guess I have been an active participant of 3 decades so far. The 1990's, the 2000's and the 2010's.


Madison Dreamtime


Dreamtime YIHS Madison Bay Area


NYC NOLA Berlin?


LA NOLA Berlin

Breaking my life up like that I can sort of make sense. But I fear its an arbitrary distinction that probably ends up creating more issues at some other position.

I could also break up my time into periods of “what I thought I wanted to do with myself”

Obsessed with 'girls' Travel the world permanently Be a crust punk and live on the remains of the system Start a Start up? Hipster life? Go into archiving Become a successful artist 3D Photographer Make music videos Be a mad scientist Say fuck it to everything I held dear and become a cold hard scientist International researcher of how culture and technology are a cybernetic system

Those are all pretty big pivots, though some of them overlap more then others. I want to have more purpose in my life. It feels like its starting to happen if only slowly. I think this will only happen by having many conversations.

I watched a number of movies on my plane ride, the first one of which was a documentary by the name Eden by Daniel Blaufuks that had a part about pirate TV stations and that was inspiring.

posted about it on the fedi here too

Today's Numbers: I spent the whole 24 hours in airports so I didn't buy much. Met some sweet folks who gave me a ride from the airport to Wedding and then I got a four pack of metro tickets for €9 and used one. When I got to Charlies house they made coffee, and then spent the afternoon helping them move into their new house. They bought me a delicious dinner for $8 in exchange for the moving help at Good Morning Vietnam