This year was good – it doesn't ping as deeply sexual to me even though it still was. I spent a lot of time kind of helping take care of things. I did a lot of emotional labor and I was completely wiped out when we got home.
I was (am?) happy to do it. I'm glad to have been able to emotionally support my date friend with her stuff. We spent a lot of time coming and going to. The air port, getting food, cooking, etc.
I just can feel my energy level tanking more and more tho. I have another long stretch of time off coming up. Because I'm not being scheduled but still. It'll help I guess.