03.01.2021 “formulate the ethereal”

The written word is a way to formulate the ethereal nature of my inner self into a from that is more tangible. Having a sense that I am doing what I am doing for a reason and not just flailing about through the chaotic sea of the present moment. I don't really understand what makes writing so daunting for me. There are so many things I want to learn about. So many places to go and people to meet. How do I start prioritizing the minutes of my day and the experiences I seek?

Take stock of what I have, what my responsibilities really are in this world.

In the spirit of trying to write and not knowing what I am trying to get across I will list the things that I have accomplished today in the order that I think of them in. I worked on cleaning the back room at Des with Damon, we moved all of Julian's tiles into the abandoned bathroom. Finally moved all of the flammable liquids into the metal cabinet outside which we should have done a year ago. Me and Damon started having sort of a hard conversation about working together and the concept of 'we' in collective spaces and how hard it is to work on projects together when we all have such different ways of working on things.

I watered the fig trees my father sent me, and they started leaking water onto the floor so I had to put them into an extra bin because I didn't have enough trays for them.

While I was throwing something away at Des a person drove by and asked if I was selling my Datsun, I responded I would sell it for 2000 which is double the amount I was thinking of selling it before I had it working. Maybe that's a bit capitalistic of me but I do really love that car. I really have no idea how much its worth but when they said that was way more then their budget I lowered my “price” to 1500 and they still seemed that was too high. They introduced themselves as Carlos and asked about the other cars, I showed them Juliens car and gave them their number. They seemed interested in it as well and the idea of getting rid of one of the cars in the yard would make us all feel better. I ended up trying to start the Datsun and said I could go down to 1300 but they still seemed to think that was more then they wanted to pay.

The Honduran folks who bought the house across the street had been using our power to do construction there and offered to pay for the electricity bill for the month. I also asked them about fixing our roof but they said they usually only redo the whole roof not any type of patches and told me they spent 8k on the roof of that house which seems crazy to spend that much on a roof for a house that was bought for 45k but I degrees.

I was woke up at Lucia's house (which is sort of my house too but I haven't figured out what exactly that means) and biked to Des. I noticed that Shake Sugary (a cafe that I used to go to quite often) has now been turned into a taqueria. On the topic of food I made a tasty egg sandwich which was really very good.

Oh the reason I biked to Des this morning in the first place was to show this person Kenzi the garden and explain the dynamics of Lobelia Collective. They were very nice and I seem down to work on the garden collectively in the near future. Hopefully something comes from that garden project.

This morning I beta tested Metatext and sent some feedback to the developer. It seems like finally it might be a really good simple fediverse client. The dev mentioned that they are in the process of open sourcing it which is always a good sign. It was strange to me to recommend Toot! to people after explaining that the whole fediverse is free and opensource.

I think I will end this post now. The only real reason I was writing this was to get myself to write again. Hope to do this tomorrow as well.